Trying to Keep my Feet on the Ground

i never thought i'd be the one afraid of lasting relationships.

sure that's what i want in the long run, but just starting college only a month ago, i'm not sure that's what i want right now. it would if i was TOTALLY and COMPLETELY into it like i was with my past boyfriends. this is different. Zee was different. And although "Justin" doesnt match him yet, he has potential to be as good as him. But for both of them, I'm not in 'like' with them as they are with me. And i want to explore potential boys, because there are some quality guys out there. No joke.

i want to be completely and totally in like
i want to reciprocate
i want to want it
and yet

i dont know what i want...

posted by your favorite acquaintance @ 2:49 PM